Well, I just found out that nursing school isn't going to be happening for me in August like I originally thought. Due to miscommunication, the school being jerks. So looks like it will not be until November when I get in.
I am so disappointed by this turn of events and desperately wish my mom was here to help talk me through this. I miss her ear to listen, shoulder to cry on and just general telling me it would all be OK and work out in the end. It's times like this that the painful reality that I have to spend the rest of my life WITHOUT my Mom. I can never again call her for her moral support or share the things in my life with her. She won't be here for the many things yet to happen in my life. And those thoughts leave me feeling sad, bitter, angry, and a mix of other emotions. If I ever underestimated or forgot how cold, cruel and unfair life can be the past 2 years have left me painfully aware of that fact. I don't understand why my Mom's life had to be so short. I guess I'll never fully understand why this happened. I used to believe there was a reason for everything but this is something I may never find a reason for.
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